Hellllooooo!!!

Hey yall,
It's been a cool minute since I've blogged but I've been superbusy.. working, tryna get my ducks in a row for school, etc... but everything is pretty much straight now so I'll be here talking to yall a little more often.
I'll definitely update you all on everything a little later. I just wanted to stop in & say hi..... so HI! lol

Change..

Hey yall! I know it's been a while but I've had quite a bit going on. I just got back from visiting Birmingham & Atlanta and I must say the trip really lit a fire under my hind part.
Those who know me personally know that I've been struggling with the decision of finishing school here or moving back to the south to be closer to "home" & that little vacay made me miss TRUE southern hospitality like crazy! I'm definitely considering making that move... I mean the way I see it, there are schools everywhere so my main focus is securing a job & a place to live.
I started this blog as a means to connect with new people, but even above that, to connect with myself on a deeper level so I'll admit that I am absolutely terrified of being that far away from my family. I'm scared that I won't be successful. I'm scared that it won't be all I hope that it will be.. I'm just scared yall!!!
I was talking to my buddy, Nicole, about all of these fears and she looked at me, smiled & said "If your dreams don't scare you, they're not big enough... I mean you can always come home so Go for it Tierra!!" That's probably gonna go down in history as one of the top 5 best pieces of advice I've received... I love having such inspirational people in my life!
I know I only have like 8 followers right now (lol) but I would love to hear you all's opinions and/or bits of advice on making this move..

Thanks!

Clap your hands if you remember your 1st time..

This is not THAT kind of post.. lol..  but now that I have your attention.....
For the first time since I was 17, I’m TOTALLY single… been that way for almost 2 years.. By totally, I mean I don’t have any dealings of any kind with anybody!! No text buddies, no late night creeps, no cuddle buddies. NOTHING. I can actually leave my phone at home all day & the only person that MIGHT call is my mom… It’s kinda sad when I look at it in black & white lol!! & No, I wasn’t with the same person for 8 years but every time I got out of one “situation”, I jumped right into another one with no recuperation period…
In all honesty I settled in my last relationship. I NEVER intended for that to turn into anything other than us just chilling from time to time. But he was pressing the issue of us being more & because I was so used to having that companionship, I let it continue. And now, almost 5 years later, I’m emotionally, physically & mentally drained, distrustful & just now getting to a point where I'm regaining my sense of self love… That situation broke me down to basically nothing..

I always heard stories about people who were in abusive relationships but I never in a million years imagined that I would be one of those people. I’m tearing up as I recollect all the nights I cried myself to sleep…. I thought I would be ok to tell my story today, but I can’t bc my tears are threatening to spill over & I don’t want to risk that happening while I’m at work… so I'll just make the promise that I'll go into greater detail another day..

The moral of the story is that I now realize that I’m the only person that can allow heart break/sadness/depression to happen & I control what I think about myself… Never again will give a person that much power over me.

Back on Track (originally posted 8/31)

the following is actually a post from my wordpress site. but the overall tone of the post is still relevant..

My brother started his first semester of college on 8/22  & I have to admit I’m kinda jealous. I can remember when I had the opportunity to be a carefree college student but I instead chose to let my foolish decisions keep me from the success that I know I deserve. Now I’m trying to get back on track & it’s so hard because I didn't handle business accordingly & now I have to pay for this out of my pocket.

It’s funny how one bad decision can change your WHOLE life. Had I chosen to do things differently back then, I probably would have 2 degrees (working on a 3rd), & be living a life filled w/ love, peace & excitement. Instead I’m stuck in Oklahoma in a dead end  job (don’t get me wrong, it pays very well), with questionable “friends” & a less than mediocre love life. I don't place blame on anyone but myself. All I can do is try to make it better.

Yeah that sounds easy enough. But I swear its one of the hardest things I’ve ever been faced with. The past week has brought so many tears. It’s crazy. I don't know how I’m gonna do it but I do know that it’s gonna take a LOT of prayer, dedication, focus & support from my family & “friends”.

Somehow I think the support is gonna be the hardest to get. When I look at my “circle”, I don't have anyone around with whom I am equally yoked. We’re all very different. The bulk of my circle is consumed w/the night life, which for me, is just something to do to pass time. I also have the people who have children. That's self-explanatory. I’m just not about that life. I pray that God will place some new & improved, equally yoked & goal-oriented people in my life so that I can remain steadfast on this journey. I also pray the same prayer for my baby brother. I want him to do well in college & in life in general….. so I’ll have to lead by example.

1 Photo

IT'S MEEEEEEE!!!!!

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Well that does it for the challenge... Hope y'all enjoyed it. If not, oh well.. Can't win em all!! lol... I look forward to keeping you all updated with my random life...

2 Songs

2 Songs

Song Cry by Jay-Z

Dont Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith

3 Films

3 Films

Love & Basketball

The Notebook

Eat, Pray, Love

4 Books

4 Books

Getting Rid of Matthew by Jane Fallon- I picked this book up in the 1/2 off bin at Barnes & Noble and it turned out to be a really good read.

My Darling, My Hamburger by Paul Zindel- This is by far one of my favorite books. We had to read it in Honors English my freshman year of high school & I've been in love with it ever since.

Invisible Man by Ralph Elison- Another Honors English assignment.. I didnt really get it until I read it again at my own leisure. GREAT!!!

The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold- The story is sad but it's a great read... & the movie is great also..

5 Foods

This challenge actually made me realize how much I like desserts lol... I couldn't for the life of me think of any "real" food that I like.. Here goes...

5 Foods

1. I could eat pecan pie EVERY DAY!

2. I actually love potatoes in ANY form but there's a special place in my heart for loaded bakers..

3. Peach cobbler with extra crust & some vanilla ice cream?? Don't mind if I do!!

4. Pineapples are a gift from the heavens above!!!

 5. I catch a lot of flack because I'm serious about my oatmeal lol

HEYYYYYY!! It's my BURFDAY!!!.... (& 6 Places)

Hi yall! Today is my 25th burfday & I must say that last night I had a frickin BLAST with my fraaaannnnsss!!! lol... Hopefully tonight will be as epic lol..
Anywho here's Day 6 of the 10 day challenge... I decided to do 6 places I want to visit.. So here goes.

6 places (I'll add pictures later lol)

1. Australia

2. Dubai

3. Rome

4. India

5. Africa

6. Brazil

7 Wants

Seven Wants

1. I want to find a career that I love so that I dont dread going to work everyday.

2. I want to fall in love FOR REAL & have that person feel as strongly abt me as I do them.

3. I want to travel more.. abroad & within the US

4. I want to be able to live my life freely with no judgements from others.

5. I want to lose weight this year

6. I want to be an inspiration to others

7. I want to be financially stable enough to live the life I envision for myself,

Eight Fears.

Eight Fears

1.) Snakes

2.) Not being able to have children

3.) Losing someone close to me.

4.) Dying alone

5.) Drowning... I love to swim

6.) Cruise Ships... they're pretty to look at & it seems like they're a blast to be on but that's too much water to drink.

7.) heights... I love to fly though.

8.) Never falling in love again.

Chall-UNGE!! (9 Loves Post)

Technically, I'm late but I've been awake since 8p 1/25 so in my mind it's Wednesday lol... Anywho, on to the post.

9 Loves

Music... Genre is irrelevant. If it sounds good & can evoke an emotion from me, it's a winner in my book

Potatoes. It's more of a love/hate thing... I love how they taste but hate what they do do my shape.

Reading. Kinda the same thing as with music.

Nick At Nite

Banana Laffy Taffy

Writing random words on my notepad when I'm at work.

Road trips!!... well travelling period.

Texting & Talking to that special someone.

Spa Days!!!

Ok that's it for this one. I'll be back later today to do the next one..

Hasta La Pasta

More Frequent posts!!! YAY!!

So I FINALLY got another laptop!! WOOHOO!!!!... And as promised, I will start to post more frequently... I decided that I would try to get into the swing of things by doing this little challenge I saw when I was reading This Blog (her name is Adri) ..... plus I figured it would be a good way to get more people reading my blog.... No?? Whatever!!! Here goes lol

10 Secrets Things That Won't Be Secrets Anymore lol

1. I'm really not a sociable person at all.... I'd much rather be at home by myself flipping channels or reading.

2. I think I have a great personality, but I think if I lost weight people would like me more.

3. Speaking of weight, I have a HUGE crush on this guy, but I won't tell him for fear that he won't like me bc I'm not skinny.

4. I think I'm lowkey addicted to sodas... whenever I try to stop drinking them, I get the worst headaches & attitude..

5. I've never watched an episode of Glee... & I'm not ashamed!!

6. I practice my dance moves in the mirror, but when I get out, I never execute them bc I don't wanna look foolish lol

7. I most definitely need to work on a closer walk with God... I'm ashamed at how I've let myself backslide.

8. I sometimes question who I really am bc I have mastered the ability to adapt to my surroundings

9. I will be 25 in 3 days & I can count on one hand how many decisions I've made based solely on my feelings.. smh

10. I can be very judgemental of others at times... I'm working on it though.

Welp! That about does it for this post... Hope yall enjoy.. if not, don't tell me! lol jk...

Hasta La Pasta

2012 so far...

It's been almost a month since my last post so I figured it was time for a short update...

First off, I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas & a Happy New Year!!! I had a blast on both... Ok on to the updates..

• I took the 1st entrance exam to the nursing program and I made a 96%!!! SWAG ME OUT!!!! Now I have to take the remaining 2 sections... hopefully I can make comparable scores on those as well...

• My 25th birthday is 2 weeks away & I don't really have any spectacular plans but I'm UBER excited about it.... 

• I got a new phone lol... & I'm in the process of narrowing down my decision on a laptop so more frequent posts are right around the corner... I still haven't fully committed to a "days of the week" theme.... but I'll have that figured out by the time I get the laptop... 

• I hate the cliche "new year new me" mindsets that people tend to embrace around this time, but for some reason, I feel a new sense of self coming into fruition.. God is amazing & I can feel Him moving in my life... Positivity is a MUST in 2012!!

Well that's pretty much the 1st 2 weeks of 2012 in a nutshell....

Hasta La Pasta!!!